A Word From Me

I'm the type of person who really enjoys writing. I'll write for as long as time permits. I always have something to say. 

Today, I spoke with someone who was very interesting. It's by far the longest phone conversation I've ever held at work with a customer. But it was quite enjoyable and I learned many new things during that hour. When I came home as my shift was over by the time the phone call ended, I was super charged by the conversation though I mostly just listened which if you know me, you know that's difficult to do and I'm on the other end making notes of everything that comes to mind I'd like to say back to the individual when they are done talking. So when I got home, I of course was talking about this individual and our lovely conversation. The point was brought up that he told me he's a licensed clinical therapist and that I mostly just listened for an hour. At those words, I was told "Psychologists talk allot don't they!" and yes I knew immediately that they were also referring to me and I was doing just that, talking non stop as I always do. But regardless, this individual shared some very interesting things with me and I must say it was an amazing ending to my day. And just reminds me how much I love people. Funny though because I'm really such a shy person. 

But on to why I came here tonight. I created this blog for many reasons. One of course being my love of writing. I could write every day and love writing to people however I tend to write so much that not everyone likes getting my letters and so I try to find other places to let my writing flow, hence the reason I now have this little space to call my own. I've always wanted one I must admit but I just love my handwritten journals so much. Only problem with those is I haven't been keeping up with them too great for the past few years. That of course is because of the situations I was in and I've since been working on it, but you see the problem is, now I don't have as much time and well aside from liking the sound of my fingers hitting the keys, typing is much faster. So yet again, here I am! So my other reasoning for having this blog here is to share other writings I've created, not just free writing. I'd love feedback on the things I've written. I am a published writer you know. And lastly, I wanted a place to detail the last 9 years of my life. You see, the last 9 years of my life, while I have been happy, I have been through many things that some would never have guessed. Sure nothing was too bad, at least people wouldn't think so, but they were still certainly very difficult to me when experiencing them. But, to detail the information allows for me to write it once and freely share it with those who should or would like to read it so that they know. I also chose to share all these details of my life so that others like me who are not near as strong as I am, have someone they can relate to and read about and get inspiration from. You never know, someone may be going through something similar to my own situation but not be handling it near as well as I am and therefore be contemplating suicide when they just happen across my blog and read it and get the inspiration and courage they need to keep going. That there is my ultimate goal with this. But I will of course need to do a bit more organizing of the content to better suite the needs of those who choose to read and share in my life and my journey and have a better understanding of me as a person. 

So for now, I leave you here as I have decided that there are more details to the past events already discussed, that should also be shared and for that I must have time. With the end of the year approaching and everything just falling into place around me (something I'm most definitely not used to that keeps me thinking, ok when is that next bad thing going to happen that always does). But to stay positive, walk with confidance, and just be the best you can be, is what is ultimately important and will lead to the proper outcome. So goodnight my friends! Until next post!

-Amanda Kay